About Me

Not sure where to begin, except to say, I am the mom of a crazy, wonderful, full household.

I am 34 and married to my rock, Nigel. I have been married before and was divorced years ago. Without giving away to many details, I am a career mom that travels. I have worked for the same company for about 6 years now, and have been promoted twice. I love my job and am grateful for the ability to have kept my job and work from a home office when we decided to move to Texas about 6 months ago.

I am a statistic in every sense of the word. I came from a divorced family, have suffered physical and mental abuse over the years, suffered thru infertility, am an adoptive parent, divorced, jobless, had a surprise pregnancy, have moved across the country three times in about 5 years, and am a step parent. WHEW! I am sure there are more statistics that I fall into, but I can't remember them at the moment.

In addition to all that, I also have depression/bipolar disorder. And THAT is the first time I have ever admitted that publicly. I received my own diagnosis more then 8 years ago. In that time, I have become one of the success stories and haven't let my problems hold me back. Of course, I had some very dark times when I was diagnosed, but have a saying that I live by.... "you can be the victim or the victor." I choose to be the victor, and have been moving forward ever since.

That isn't to say every thing is always rosey in my life, but thru medication management and therapy, I have FAR, FAR more good days then bad. There are times I struggle, but most days it doesn't even bother me.

There is such a stigma about people with bipolar. The stigma paints people as always dark and depressed and basically all around mopey people. I agree that there are some people who allow their bipolar to rule them, and not the other way around. There are some very successful people in this world who are bipolar and you wouldn't even know it. I think much of the time, I am one of those people.

I am sure I will have much more to say about myself later on, but for now... bipolar is genetic... and it has affected my precious princess Sara. Currently, I am struggling to not let this overwhelm me, and have been attempting to push away the feelings of "mommy guilt" for the last several days. I wouldn't change my life for anything, but I am sad that my daughter will live with this awful diease for the rest of her life.